Today has definitely been one of the worst days I've had in a long time, if not ever. You know that feeling that manifests in your chest, twists in your stomach, and then feels so awful and uncomfortable that it's going to come back up your throat? This feeling makes me feel like a stranger to myself.
How do you make amends with a parent?
I have never believed my mother to be someone who is emotional--in fact, she is the best at keeping her emotions inside. I fear that...i'm just like that? I just keep repeating the whole argument over in my head..and it's not like it was a conversation, it was like an execution. I feel about the size of my pinky nail.
These are the times I need to work on the four agreements..."Don't take anything personally" ---whenever someone is frustrated with me or around me I take it to heart. Perhaps a good New Year's Resolution.
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