There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.
What kills me is that I'm the haphazard victim of my own bad habits. I make the same mistake foolishly; I bleed honesty, crave can't live without you love, yearn for something, someone real...but yet, I am stuck in this revolving door of stupidity. It's like I close my eyes to the past, turn away from the present, and blindly see the future. I wish, just once, you could be Prince Charming. Maybe that's the problem, I imagine you to be greater than you are, than you could be. What disappoints me is...really myself for being reckless. I consistently tell my friends, "It's over when you're done. When you're done..it's done." The question is..why can't you just let me be? Or rather, why can't I be free of you? I can't help but wonder--am I brave enough to find the truth behind the lies you speak with such conviction? I want a man who is worthy of my admiration...someone who commands respect. You, are continually untrue. Your word is your bond, but you break it so easily. Why am I enabling myself to be some poor character from a Jane Austen movie or some bad chick flick? There must be some masochist in me, to let you in--it's always something with you.
Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over.
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.
This needs to be done. A closed chapter. I never knew it could be so hard to do the rational thing..
"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.."
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