I swear I almost forgot my username and password. Almost.
I had to write to record my most epic mini-crisis ever. I had a complete break down. It all started a few months ago with my new job....I'm running the show and I'm ex-haus-ted. Last week I had a sinus infection and bronchitis at the same time...I couldn't take time off work. Pathetic. Tonight, I got to Derek's and I had to leave before we could go rock climbing (my first work out in two weeks because of illness)--just to return to work until 8:30.
I ended up back at his place, drinking a glass of wine instead of dinner.
Ultimately, I ended up standing in my kitchen ranting that I was angry. Pissed. Irate. I told Kristin I was feeling crazy and wanted to move to another country.
Have you ever felt so ridiculously crazy? I felt like one of the pint size 5 year olds at work having a tantrum. I envisioned myself stomping and pouting. I just wanted to be mad. You want to laugh and cry at the same time. I'm slightly disappointed and amused at myself.
Top 5:
1. I've been working 80 hours a week without overtime. Burnt out?
2. Derek is moving to LA in 5 weeks
3. I went to my grandmother's funeral this past weekend--my heart is aching.
4. Sinus infection + bronchitis + no sleep
5. Emptying out my grandmother's house..aching.
and number 6..just because
Sunday is Father's day--I wonder if I called you if you would change your mind. I still can't rationalize that I had a father for 21 years and then he just disappeared. 21 years. 21. We haven't spoken in four years. Oh how much has changed--and yet, some part of me still misses you.
