In order to get power and retain it, it is necessary to love power; but love of power is not connected with goodness but with qualities that are the opposite of goodness, such as pride, cunning and cruelty
~Tolstoy
People pay for what they do, and still more, for what theyhave allowed themselves to become. And they pay for it simply: by thelives they lead.
~Edith Wharton
This year has been an interesting experience--I am going through the ups and downs of having a "grown-up" job. I never realized how dog-eat-dog occupations were. It surrounds me at work and at the high school I am doing my field experience at . I watch people seemingly "hawk" over one another, trying to out do the person because of what they feel they are entitled to. It's ironic that I work at a job dealing with teenagers, and my problem has nothing to do with them and everything to do with power hungry co-workers.
I am doing my best to keep my chin up and trust that good always overcomes evil. Does good always get what they deserve? Or do you have to succumb to the Shark mentality? I hate that going to work has turned into an awkward power struggle that I have no intention of being apart of. I just want to keep my job and do the best job that I can.
Instead of relying on the literary greats for my free reading, I am bending and purchasing titles like "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff at Work" and "The Art of Happiness." I never thought I would become a self-helper. The real world has driven me to self-help books.
My goal is to follow the advice of Dr. Richard Carlson--I will will not complain about it any more. I cannot change anyone. I cannot change anything other than how I handle it. This will be my mantra.
Also, I really miss Kenny. He is the complementary part of my personality that tells me how to handle assholes. I really wanted to call him today and then I remember he's in Adelaide. This was very depressing.
In short...all is well?
